What do I want?

Most people who know me would say “Trey knows exactly what he wants.” That’s true. In life, I know the desires of my heart. Only because I am constantly searching my soul.

So, I’m laying here in bed. Just finished watching a horrible PC movie that I won’t give the credit of naming, and I get to thinking. Have my desires changed again? This is not a bad thing. What we want in life is constantly evolving as we are evolving in perpetuity ourselves.

So I decided I would chronicle what it is that I want, the “Desires of My Heart”

To Live, Not Just Exist:

To live my life in such a way that it cannot be said of me that I wasted even a moment. To live each day as though it is my last, but to plan and work as though I will live forever. To recognize the beauty in everything, appreciate each moment, and to find the true pleasures in life that hide in the small things. Recognizing that there is no certain, unique destination where I find happiness, I want to remember each day, in thrill, in joy, in crisis, that happiness is found… it is not thrown upon me… I must look for it. And if I live my life always aware of the joy and happiness in every day, then it doesn’t matter which is my last, because each is as valuable as the next.

To Contribute to the Betterment of Everyone:

I don’t work all day, on 4 businesses, writing in my free time (I’ll define “free time” later) so that I can be rich and comfortable. I do what I do, all that I do because I want to make a difference. I want the world to be a better place when I leave it than it was when I came. I want to be remembered. If that is pride… I am guilty. But you cannot fault a man if he changes the world asking only to be remembered.

To Love Someone Wholly and Be Loved in Return

I consider myself a… rather… pragmatic man. And as I evaluate those around me - what I see and what I read; I realize that this is not the era of my life where I have, or even search for her. But, it is worth mentioning here, as having her is one of the great desires of my heart. I want to share in complete vulnerability, all of my dreams. I want to learn, in complete detail of another’s existence. I want to experience life through two sets of eyes, not just my own. I want to change the world, but not on my own. One of the deepest desires of my heart is to travel the world with a companion at my side - and, together, change the lives of millions or more! I keep my eyes open, and my nose to the grindstone. I know that this is not the time, but I am cognizant of this unfulfilled desire of my heart.

So there we have it. In general I have, apparently, 3 goals in my life. “Goal” probably isn’t the best word, seeing as it implies an ending point… but it is 1 in the morning, and I am sleepy. As with most of my writing, albeit word or song, this was for me, but I don’t mind if anyone else looks.

Goodnight,